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Tongue Periced in 4 Days!!!!!!!!
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| God were having a blast me and nicole. This week has been awesome. And next week NJ BABY!!!. Bitches better watch out cause nicks in down so
"Lock up your daughter"
"Lock up your wife"
"Lock up your backdoor and run for you life"
Im going to my city....And im going to live it up
Cause Im pimping around the world and the next stop is Nj
^^ Im so white
<3 see ya all when i get back |
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| Hey. Man its one of them nights. They come to often. Hell its bascelly
evernight. Where all the damn memories come rushing back to you all at
once. Where you try to think of the things you did wrong and things you
could of done better at. You rake your brain over and over, time after
time thinking of the words you could of said even though its to late
now. When the thought of her being in anothers arms tonight just rips
you heart out and makes you so overwhelmed, so desprate, feeling lost
in the world cause the only one that you ever felt so close to, and
loved was feeling how you feel for her for someone else. Which does
make you alone. You can have a thousand friends with you but youll
never be out of solitare. Cause the only one that you ever finally
broke yourself down to trust. Threw that trust away, like it was
nothing speical. And you think of all the memories and you think of all
the late night convos, you think of everything. And it just eats you
away. It craves a hole in your stomach all the things you could of done
better. The fact that yous never even had many memories. That you could
of somehow made it better. I kick myself everday for not spending ever
single moment that was humanly possible with her. And now i pay for it.
By spending every moment ,even if not humanly possible, greiveing over
it. And the thing is. Why?. Why can't I just move on?. Oh could I know,
of course not. Not me. I mean ive seen couples that were together for
about 3 years and break up and move on in a week. But ohh not Nick. He
spends a fucking lousey month of his life and doesnt move on. God why
cant I just be like everyone else. Why the fuck cant I just be think
everything as a little highschool fling and that its nothing. But not
me. Why cant I not fall in love for once. Cause its never done anything
at all for me. Its just bitten me in the ass time after time. But yet I
fall. Well no more. I stepped away from that clif and im not takeing a
dive no longer. Its just now that probelm is off my back about not
falling again. But what about the results of the last jump. Looks like
ill have to live with them. Though it nights like these happen. The sad
thing is. Its not just its random nights like this. Its every moment.
Its just nights like this you can express it and not care. Im sure in
the morning im going to be pissed at myself for posting this but i dont
care. Yeah its one of them nights. Where missing someone takes is self
to the next level.
Well other then that bullshit. Hm. Whats been going on. This weekend my
cuz Nicole is coming over which will be awesome. And hmmm im going to
my cuz Cortneys soon. And Emilys and Bretts ...and yes Brittney i
finally get to meet you....(just to rape me to hard when you see
me:o)...hmm i dont know what else is going on. Lol i been talking to an
old friend Mister Allan Curry. When he gets his ass down here we are
going to have the best time ever. But Allan im not doing anything
worrest then shrooms so dont force me bitch. hm what else. Im getting
my hurr cut soon. Its gotten to long again lol. hmm I went to Six flags
it was pretty fun. Hung out with an oringal Gangsta Mister Timmy (shit
forgot your last name) and Jc....but the day was pretty short so it was
ok. Hm..im going on vaction soon to New Jersey lol. And i cant wait
mostly for that next year. Foley you reading this?...yeah cause Me,
Foley, Britt, and Carr.. are going on the most kick ass road trip ever
mother fuckers its going to be the best. hmm well. I wrote a couple
more songs if you want to hear them just im me. Oh yeah that reminds me
i have a new sn:
LetsPauseTheNite
Lol thanks Carly for helping me to decide on it. Aw. Nicole i just have
to tell you. Im so proud of you. You got drunk your first time this
weekend. And I wasnt there to share it with you:(. Well one day me and
you are going to stay with Cort and were going to get trashed like
Whoaa.. kk....Well i have nothing else really to say ill write back
soon ...night
kc...<3
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| GUESS WHAT....IM BACK!!!!
Havent wrote one of these in a lonngggg time:)
But im back so deal with it. Hmm what happend...Went camping, pretty ok....Got a new eye brow ring yesterday...its blue...matchs my eyes...its effing awsome...and it owns your family. Went with annemaire to the fireworks the other night...it was ok....All summer so far ive been playing guitar. Im getting sooo much better then i use to. I guess Pratice makes perfect:). and its sure is showing.Ive also been writing some songs this whole summer cause my writers block is over with thank god:)...well were about to have a campfire now so im going out back....peace bitchs
Foleys not going to win the pop rock make out thing....I will kick her ass if she does so:)
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